I want my baby back, baby back, baby back . . .

Isabella has been staying with Monte's parents since yesterday, and we won't get her back until tomorrow! She's stayed with them before when we've gone somewhere, but this is really weird having her gone with us being home. Yesterday was busy with a dentist appt. for me and a dr. appt. for Monte. And today we were gone for the entire day to another dr. appt. for Monte. So we are grateful to Monte's parents for helping us out, but I sure do miss my girl!

I'm not entirely sure where we stand on Monte's treatment right now. Some blood tests came back showing that his kidneys are not functioning properly, and then there's the whole issue of medications for his Crohn's. The doctor wants to put him on a medication that, after doing some research tonight, can have some pretty serious side effects. The med is something Monte would inject in himself once every two weeks. According to the info we were given "serious side effects may occur, including death". Well, isn't that just wonderful, but what is a person to do - surely he would not survive if left untreated, as serious as his disease has gotten. So it is totally in God's hands, in whom I have complete faith. Another factor is that the med can make you very susceptable to serious lung infections, so the dr. told him he should not be doing any work outside. HA HA! Seriously?! He's in crop insurance, he spends every day outside, spring through fall in fields!!! But apparently it should be okay if he wears a protective mask (which he is NOT happy about) while he is working outside. But, the major factor is the price. Are you ready for this? $14,000 a year!!! Yes, that's right. Some insurance doesn't cover it, and if it is covered by insurance, the doc tells us it could be anywhere from $900 to $4000 a year still!! Even $900 doesn't sound very good to us. So the nurse is doing some checking for us, contacting insurance, pharmacies, etc. and we will hear back in a couple of days as to what the price will be. If the price is too astronomical, we will have to go back and discuss other options. But this is the dr's first choice to treat Monte, he says he has had great results with his patients. They also sent home a huge kit on the drug (including DVD's for us to watch about it). I also asked the doc about the possibility of us being able to have a baby once Monte is better but still while on this drug (as it is a long term drug), as other drugs he has been on make it dangerous to conceive. We were told, if we were to conceive, that the baby would be fine, however the chances of us actually being able to conceive are very low, as this drug would cause a very low "little swimmer" count. I took that as good news, because that means there is still a chance, and God does and has worked so many miracles! So that's where we stand right now, once again more waiting . . .

On a bright note, the appt. only took about 45 minutes, and since we were quite a ways from home, we made a whole day out of it. We did a little shopping/browsing and we even had a Barnes and Noble date, which was definitely the highlight of my day!