I can't believe it's been almost two weeks since I've posted! I'm still here . . . I know I shouldn't complain, but this has been
hard. I'm almost 12 weeks along, and the nausea has gotten worse this week (just when I was hoping it would be starting to get better!) At the beginning of the week I was wondering, jokingly (yet somewhat seriously) if one's throat can be damaged from vomiting a lot, because it sure felt like it. :) But the worst has been my migraines, I normally take medication for them, but can't take it while I'm pregnant, of course. They have been terrible, leaving me unable to get out of bed for 2-3 days at a time, while Monte has to stay home from work to take care of Isabella (luckily he's home more than usual this time of year, but has still had to miss some days). Isabella did go and stay with Monte's parents for four days recently, and that helped quite a bit, although I was glad to get her back home. I have finally made a decision to talk to my doctor at my appt. tomorrow about the anti-nausea meds. I think I'll get the prescription and at least have them on hand. I feel better about them now that the most critical time of development for the baby is over. I still feel very leary about taking meds while pregnant. Although, when I was pregnant with Isabella I had to take all sorts of different meds, plus had lots of different IV's and shots, all to try and prevent pre-term labor, plus I even had a CT scan and X-ray (which you are NOT supposed to get while pregnant, and I was freaking out about, due to a possible blood clot in my lung) and she seemed to turn out okay. :)
Isabella has been good through all of this, she is always kissing me and hugging me, telling me she loves me, and telling me ALL the time, "I just wish you would feel better, Mommy." She's pretty good about just getting some toys and playing on the floor next to me while I lay on the couch. But in typical only child fashion she likes her fair share of attention, too, she LOVES Candyland, and only asks to play it about 50 times a day! She does love to color, too, and that's something she and I have fun doing together, and it doesn't take much effort on my part. :) She's recently gotten into drawing, and it's been fun to see what was just a short while ago, nothing but scribbles, turn into to actual shapes and people. She loves to build things with blocks, so we decided to get her a nice set of wooden building blocks for Valentine's Day. That is definitely not something we would ordinarily do, buy her a nice toy for something like Valentine's Day (normally she would just get some candy or something very small) but she's been cooped up in the house with me all winter, with little attention from me, so we figured this would be new and exciting for her to have something new to play with while I watch from the couch. :) She got to pass out valentine's for the first time to her little friends at my Bible Study this morning, she was pretty excited! She was also pretty excited about getting valentine's back from them, too.
My next appt. is tomorrow, I was really sad when I went to my first appt. and my doctor, who I LOVE, refused to take me as a patient (I say refuse, but she was very nice about it). She felt I should see a doctor who specializes in high risk pregnancies, after all the problems I had last time. I like my new doctor fine, but he definitely doesn't take the time to sit down and "talk" like my lady doctor did. :) One neat thing, though, is that he has an ultrasound machine right there in his office, and can perform an ultrasound at any time. I'll have more appts. due to my history of pre-term labor, he also said I will be getting steroid shots to develop the baby's lungs faster (I had these with Isabella as well). He said after this spring I probably won't be allowed to do much physically (excercise, go for walks, etc) :( And he would consider putting me on bedrest around May, but also said we will just wait and see. I PRAY everything is okay and that I don't have to be on bedrest, what will I do with Isabella?? I also will be having
this test at least a few times during the pregnancy (which I also had with Isabella). I am really hoping and praying to make it to 36 weeks this time, that would be great. Isabella was born at 34 weeks, which is 6 weeks early (after I had first gone into labor with her at 24 weeks). The doctors say I am more likely to deliver even earlier this time, but I'm not going to worry until I have something to actually worry about. But even then, it's all in God's hands, and all I have to do is TRUST (and pray!). We really are SO excited about this baby! And in some strange way, even though I'm feeling so sick, I feel like the nausea is a good sign that everything is okay.